The Human Race

Living in Utah County has presented many challenges to me through the years. When I was a young college student -so concerned with myself and sure the whole world revolved around me- I saw a culture that seemed cold, self-righteous, full of judgment and completely unbending. But over the years, there are things I have come to understand in a whole new light. And perhaps the most judgmental place in the valley sat squarely in MY heart.

I recently commented on a friends blog that Utah Valley seems to be one thing on the surface, but as you take the time to REALLY get to know someone -or show sincerity and wonder in your interactions with others, you will find unimaginable diversity here. Everyone has a story worth telling. Sometimes the most Molly of Moms can shock your shorts if you get to know their journey. Life is never as it appears on the surface of the glistening pond of humanity. And there is a LOT churning in some of the places least expected. Keep your eyes open and your heart will become swollen by the stories of those you pass every day. The trick is in the seeing -in the vulnerability and compassion you share that allows people to open up. If you allow yourself to be vulnerable and imperfect, people will come out from behind their masks and really show you who they are.

The LOCATION of my journey is not nearly as important as my individual response to those around me. I MUST push myself beyond my comfort zones and be willing to be authentic in my relationships with others. I have a multitude of flaws and imperfections. And now I am adding a layer of fear that seems to be cumulative as I age. I simply MUST push past my fears and replace that fear with faith. For ultimately, all fear is a form of Atheism, as it denotes a LACK of FAITH in GOD'S infinite wisdom. If the future is going to have any value to me and those I interact with, the burden of that VALUE lies squarely with me. For I determine my own attitudes, and those attitudes have an affect on those around me. MOST IMPORTANTLY MY FAMILY!

 I Must Become a

 Beacon of Light to my Family !

I don't want to be a worried old lady when I die! I prefer to become a beacon of light through which God can perform good works. I want to leave a legacy of living life with joy! It is simply time for me to change the course of my path, and move towards a powerful existence that reflects the Light of Christ. I want to be a force for good in the universe -not just one more speck of empty dust with nothing but a plastic shell. Time to step up.